This has become my usual practice to write the blog when I
get upset or feel low, when I have so much in my mind but nothing to speak,
when I do not want to say anything but except others to understand. I do this
many times, I think of a lot of things to write about but when I open this
blog, I go blank. But today I have to write something and the reason being
someone’s push that “Pushker!! You have to write something today in your blog”.
I made an unsaid promise to her that I will follow whatever she will say.
So....starting with the things happening around me, Rahul Gandhi and Narendra
Modi are top news and both of them had their rallies same day. My joining
leaves came to an end today. I visited Hardoi only to see her, rest of the
leaves went useless. Tomorrow is a working day and I am very afraid about what
will happen tomorrow. I don’t know when I got this habit of being tensed about
small things at work. Because of this habit my leaves were total waste as I
could not enjoy at all. Seeing her was the only part of this week I am happy
about. Moving on....Diwali is just one week away and I can very much feel the
festiveness around me. I was also checking out online shopping sites like ebay,
flipkart and also the buying and selling sites like OLX and Quickker. Actually
I always want to change my mobile phone but I always drop the idea because I
get very confused about which phone to buy. Some time I feel like selling my
Bike on OLX (Its a Royal Enfield Classic 350 CC). I won’t sell it but I have to
sell a few things i.e. Guitar, Computer Monitor. I guess buying and selling is
not that easy for me.
About my reading habit, let me tell you that I always want
to be an author. I believe to be an author one must read a lot. Currently I
have 5 to 6 half read books, I make many efforts to read and finish them, but
that doesn’t interest me. I don’t even know that why I want to become an
author. Sometimes I enjoy cooking, but when there is no one around who admire
this skill or who is a foody, it is very difficult to keep cooking for hobby.
Actually I always needed that “PUSH”. In simple words, I am not a self
motivated person. This doesn’t mean that I am not a performer; I just need
someone to push me forward.
I know it is very negative and depressing kind of content what
I am writing but right now this is the only thing what is coming out of this
mind and if some one dares to read my blog, he/she must bear this.
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